Saturday, September 1, 2012

Our First Wedding Anniversary!


One year ago today I married my best friend and love of my life! :)

I can't believe it's already been a year -- sometimes it seems like our wedding was just yesterday!  I feel like our life has been such an incredible whirlwind so far, but that's how it's been ever since we met so I'm used to it by now ;)  Ever since Jonathan came into my life I feel like he opened my mind to the world...before I met him I was so sheltered and scared to go outside of my comfort zone.  I grew up very protected and shielded from a lot which isn't necessarily a bad thing, it just meant that I had gotten used to other people making decisions for me.  By the time I got to 18 or 19 I was hitting that point in my life where I wanted to branch out and have new experiences but could never figure out how to get there because I simply had never done anything by myself before!

When I met Jonathan he was 27 and I was 19.  We were total opposites...nobody liked us being together, at all!  Back then he was a total "bad boy" in my teenage eyes, ha ha ha!  Maybe it's hard to imagine now because you guys mostly all know his sensitive side but that's not how he seemed on first impression.  He was that older guy who drove a fast motorbike, wore his leathers everywhere he went, smoked, had tattoos and *gasp* even had facial hair!  I on the other hand, was the ultimate good girl...I didn't smoke or drink, always got good grades in school, was elected prefect every year, played piano, and never ever disappointed my parents.  I was a total goody-goody...ha ha ha :)

However I was also (at the time) frustrated, unhappy and beginning to feel like my life was being lived by somebody else.  I was in a crappy relationship and had just started a college course that I had no interest in.  Everything I did was to keep someone else happy...I stayed with my ex-boyfriend because I thought my friends expected it of me, and I went to college because I thought that's what my parents wanted.  Jonathan was one of the most refreshing and wonderful things that could ever have happened to me and after about a month of getting to know each other, I fell head over heels.

I remember telling him all of my secrets, my passions, my dreams for the future and feeling so shocked when he would sit back and say "so, what's stopping you?".  I'd come up with all kinds of excuses like I always did, "oh my parents wouldn't be happy" or "my friends would disapprove" or "what would people think of me...I can't do that" and he would just laugh and tell me, you can do whatever you want to do.  It's your life.  What do you want to do?  

Jonathan is the reason why I've become a braver person (and I'm still not that brave...I have a long way to go!).  He is the reason I left college and went on to pursue a career in fashion styling.  He's the reason I moved to Munich to intern at Ralph Lauren...the reason I moved to London to study fashion, the reason I started YouTube and the reason I'm currently working at my dream job.  But most of all, he is one of the major reasons why I'm happy.  I'm not going to lie, it was absolutely terrifying making those changes in my life.  I lost most of my friends and my dad & my older brother were initially very upset...they thought they needed to protect me and Jonathan was scary to them because he was different, older, and nobody they had ever met before so naturally they were afraid I would get hurt.  

I would get so upset when my dad would tell me "this is not the man I thought you'd end up with" because I knew he was dying and I didn't want him to be disappointed in me.  I tried my hardest over the next year to make him see the man that I fell in love with, the Jonathan who was in fact a sweet, caring and sensitive guy underneath all the tattoos & facial hair!  Now I am encouraged and satisfied in knowing that by the end of my dad's life they had gotten to know each other much better and had actually forged a strong relationship.  I saw them laugh together all the time and my dad even confessed to me that he was so happy to see how well Jonathan & my mom got along.  I knew it was really  important to him.  

(Okay this part is very hard for me to write and I'm trying, yet failing to keep the tears from falling so please bear with me!)  

Jonathan was not there when my dad passed away...he was still in England and I had flown back to Ireland to be with my family in his final moments of life.  So the next time Jonathan saw him was in a coffin in the funeral home.  It means so much to me that the last thing Jonathan ever said to my dad was when he leant over, touched his hand and whispered "I'll look after her now".  

These are all of the reasons why I love Jonathan.  I am so happy that he is my husband and that we're living our lives just the way we want, not driven by anybody else.  He will always be a huge inspiration to me.  I'm looking forward to spending the rest of my life with him :) <3  

Happy 1 Year Anniversary Jofus ;) 
I love you so much! xoxo

24 comments:

  1. Aw I am in tears now. Such a beautiful honest post. The two of uou make a wonderful couple, its hard to believe that your family did not want you to be together! Here's to many more wonderful years together!!!

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  2. Aw this is so sweet. Hapoy anniversary! My husband is also quite a bit older than me i was 18 when we met and he was 24 and turned 25 a few months later..i am now 23 and he will be 30 in oct we are married with 2 little ones. Good luck with everything..and remember when the baby comes it might get stressful and you might get irritated with each other but it will get better and read this post to remind yourself why you fell in love.

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  3. I am sitting here to with tears behind my eyes. You are so lucky to have met each other. I can truely say that you both are an inspiration to me, together as a couple and as individuels with personal goals and passions. Thank you for being on the internet. I watch you every day.
    Much love
    From the Netherlands

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  4. Congrats on 1 year of marriage!! I had to keep back the tears. Yall are so perfect together and have got to be one of the sweetest couples, ever. I wish you both the best! Especially as you embark on this new journey in your lives... you will both be absolutely amazing parents! I love you guys and wish you all the best!!! xxoo from Michigan

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  5. Awwww that is so sweet :) happy Anniversary :) the year has flown by and Enilia will be here any day now :) do happy things are going great for you both and wish you all the happiness in the world for your long and happy marraige xxx

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  6. Oh m goodness <3 so touching! Happy anniversary to you both!

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  7. Sitting here with tears in my eyes. You guys are amazing and such an inspiration! I wish you guys all the best for ye're lives together! Ye are going to be amazing parents! I hoor someday I will have with someone what ye have with each other!

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  8. Dear Anna... Your words were so emotionals... I get married at 23 (now I'm 27) with no money at all and everyone was telling us we were too young and that it'll be too difficoult without any economic certancy... But we were, and are, so incredibly happy, and this is what really matter...we changed life, friends and lifestyle but I can't immagine to be' happier... That's why I get so emotional reading your post... You are so lucky and I'm sure your dad, wherever he is, is proud of you... Both of you! Sorry if I've made any grammar mistake but I'm italian :) so..... Buon anniversario da me e da mio marito, ogni giorno guardiamo insieme i vostri vlog.. Un abbraccio!! Valeria e Riccardo

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  9. Wow, I was also fighting against my tears! Jofus and you are such a perfect couple <3

    I wish you all the best and little Emilia too.

    Kisses from Germany!!!

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  10. I don't have any words to express how this blog touch my heart. My husband lost his mother in car wreck when he was little boy. This brought tears to my eyes ..how you speak of ur father & jofus bonding & jofus will look after u. I will never meet my mother in law but I know she looks after my husband & I. I read him ur blog he was teary eye. bc we are our in first year of marriage & he was the bad boy & his mother has passed.Congrats to your one year & many more to come. You are true inspiration to the world and you are lucky to share such powerful bond with the love of your life.Thank you for sharing ur lives with us and making the rest of us good girls braver:)

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  11. Thank you so much Anna for sharing your heart with us<3 im so happy that you found each other and followed your dreams! And now you are such an inspiration for the rest of us. Really thank you for this post<3

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  12. This is the most beautiful post i've ever read. Your words are so honestly and deep out of your heart that it makes me cry. I love you guys and love even more that you share your life with us. I've never met you before,but have the feeling to see old friends when i watch the vlogs or reading your posts. (please excuse my crappy english) i'm feeling really sorry for your lost,anna, but also love to know that your dreams come true. You both gonna be great parents (you're already for the dogs)! Ich liebe euch! Ihr seid wundervolle Menschen :)

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  13. This is the most amazing and heart felt post. I love it. It brought me to tears. To see two people so in love is so enlightening. I wish the both of you all the love, happiness and health that this world has to offer. You are both amazing and wonderful and I am so fortunate that I get to see your videos and your posts everyday.
    Congratulations and all my love

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  14. Reading this I am grinning ear to ear and yet tears are coming down my face. You two are such special people. I pray that you both spend many happy years living your lives together. I feel blessed that you share all these happy moments with the world; it gives me some hope in love. Best wishes. Salut!

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  15. Oh my gosh! Ive watched your videos since the start and im now crying and I have goosebumps!! I cant wait to see how happy the 9 of u will be together! I wish u all the very best in the future and I know u and Jofus will be great parents! :) Much love, Lucy xx

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  16. Happy Anniversary! Wish you all the best for Emilia's birth you guys will make such great parents. Thanks for all the funny and inspiring vlogs it's so lovely to see two really sweet and amazing people who love each other so much.
    Best wishes and good luck from Lucy in Cork x

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  17. This post brought me to tears.. hope u'll have a great life with emilia i love you guys sooo much thank you for making videos they really mean a lot to me.. My name is Sina which makes me feel a bit closer to you since your dogs name is Sina <3

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  18. This was such a beautiful post Ana! I am so happy that you & Jofus have found each other in this life time. It is clear in every way that you two were MEANT to be together because your relationship is such a beautiful and rare one. I watch your vlogs everday and i am thankful i get to be apart of 'it' all. Thank-you so much for sharing your lives with us friends/fans as it is much appreciated & truly brings joy to my life. You two are an inspiration for happily ever after. Happy one year anniversary Ana & Jofus! Congratulations on spending the rest of your lifes together as bestfriends/lovers/partners/parents/ husband n wifey :) -Wishing you all kinds of happiness & many blessings! <3 x & o's

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  19. This is amazing and said from the heart with love and honesty! I am amaze and I am seeing a few tears even though I'm a boy it freaks me out that this has shown me my sensitive side, I never felt like this before. You have a gift of writing Anna!

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  20. That was beautiful! Congratulations on year one and blessings for many more...years, smiles, love, memories and kids!! :)

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  21. This made me cry and smile at the same time! It is SO lovely of you to have shared something so personal, and I truly hope to find a love like you have one day. I am glad to have seen some insight into your perspective (I am a vlog and stylediet subscriber (:) and it made watching that much more beautiful. I really love these relationship posts and videos you guys do, and I'm sure I speak for more then myself when I say that it would be amazing to see more of them! Your first thoughts on eachother, first date, kiss, when you knew you loved him. It would be so sweet to read something from Jofus too! Gosh, there are just so many invested in your relationship! We love you guys <3 Happy aniversery and I am so excited to see Emilia!

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  22. What an amazing post. Thank you so much for sharing your life with us. You are both really spectacular people. The love you have for each other is really beautiful. I've only recently found your videos, but I'm hooked now, and telling all the girls I work with, and my sisters and my mom about your videos. Thank you for your videos. I look forward to it every day.

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  23. Aawwww thats so sweet. I'm very happy for both of you. Congrats on the one year and a lot more to come. I'll Ben watching your videos for the passed year or so and I fell like I'm part of y'all family already. Y'all are a inspiration to me. Everyday I look forward watching yalls daily blogs, they are awesome!!!! Y'all are going to be the best parents to little Emilia:):):):) can't wait to see her and I know you do too! Haha Well wish the best for both of u and god bless y'all! Love you Anna and Jofas oh and the loud crazy but cute doggys!! Haha
    Sincerely Sarahi H.:):):)

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